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I haven't written in a long time.

There has been sadness and loss and also happiness and joy.

There have been setbacks and great strides forward.

There is anxiety, stress, pressure, anger, frustration, pain and still through it all there is relief, peace, support, love, acceptance, and joy.

For all of the negative I can happily count hundreds of positives, blessings if you will (Thanks, Janeen.)

I found out that my youngest child had to go to the emergency room.
Nobody had told me.
I got a bill in the mail for the services with his name on it from a month ago.
I freaked.
I was hurt, angry, frustrated, torn, broken.

Then I called him.
He was fine. It was "no big deal". Just another day in the life of a 14 year old diabetic.
He's fine, so it wasn't an "issue". Everyone else thought he had told me that weekend.

Then I found out the rest of the story.

He woke up early for school to eat. He was low, but not lower than he has been in the past.
In his words, he thought he'd go eat and get his sugar up, but when he went to pour the milk it spilled and he got really angry.

What he didn't know was that Caetie was watching him have a seizure and he flung the milk across the room because he couldn't control himself. She went to him and held onto him. I know that she had to be terrified, because I know I would have been.

She didn't fall apart, she was there for her brother. She yelled for Mike.
She took care of J while Mike coordinated calling 911 for an ambulance and locating their father. This was complicated by issues with his business phone. Mike persevered and their dad got there only 3 or 4 minutes after the ambulance.

J doesn't remember any of this, he remembers being angry and then being surrounded by family and paramedics.

I am so proud of them.